I DON'T KNOW

I don’t know what I’m doing
I don’t know why I’m doing it
It feels good while doing
And feels weird after doing it.

I don’t know where it will take me
Or where it might leave me
Or what it would do
If something happens to me

I don’t want to name it
Or put on it a label
I tell my friends its normal,
I tell my friends its stable

But it is really crazy
And sometimes it is hazy
And other times it is painful
And at times it gets lazy

But any which way it is
I know I can’t resist
Like that and/or like this
It always will persist
I don’t know what this is

I know one thing or two
I always will be true
To whatever the hell I do
And to that which is due
I did, I will, I do

This really is amazing
And I don’t know its nature
I don’t know what I’m doing
I love a single feature

I know there could be trouble
And there could be a mess
But this one I won’t shuffle
Cuz right now, more is less

Few will understand
Few will appreciate
Why I took this stand
Or how much this is great.

I don’t know what this is
I don’t know where its going
I have no idea
The direction of its flowing

I don’t know what to say
And sometimes how to act
I don’t know which way
What’s fake and what is fact

I feel I am confused
I feel I’m realizing
And now I feel bemused
And then I feel like rising

What a wonderful feeling
When you feel like something staggering
Amazing and surprising
And then you feel astounding

I can go on forever
Describing what this is
But I have no idea
Why I’m writing this

I’m writing this to say
I’m writing this to tell
I’m busy night and day
Trying to foretell

I try to think this out
I try to make some sense
What this thing is about
What is it with its presence

Some think I am insane
Some say I am a genius
Like pleasure and like pain,
I might just be delirious

I know I will not stop
I know I do not want to
Any day I might drop
Or decide to continue